there’s some humour to be found in feeling all caught up in something not going as you’d hoped or expected…
if it was hope you held, you might feel it more as hurt or sadness; where as expectation may lead you to feelings of anger or frustration.
and of course, nothing is ever just as simple as “this or that”… so you’re likely to feel various shades and depths of all of these emotions
but when you’ve felt them for long enough, it’s okay to put them down.
this is a lesson i’m still learning.
it’s easy for me to get caught in emotions, when i feel energy so intensely, and especially when my nervous system is a bit frazzled
and i can certainly get caught up in my own thoughts. forgetting to check in with myself, and forgetting to reach for the tools that i know can help
this is part of my humanness.
but other times, i can remember to check in. and take a step or two back.
i can see the situation from another, widened, perspective… and its from there that i notice:
sometimes the only person putting pressure on a situation or outcome is me
and i can point the finger back at myself,
but not in a way filled with judgement and shame.
instead, in a liberating way, where i can look around, recognize the truth behind this insight, and then i can let everything i was carrying — that energetic cocktail of heavy emotions — fall away.
i can release them. i can set it down.
i can set it all down! i’ve finally remembered i can set it all down 🙌
the fallible memory is part of my humanness too.
and it’s here, in this space where i’ve let it all go, that i can revel in the big cosmic joke of it all:
i am the creator. this suffering was crafted by me.
and even this doesn’t have to be a source of shame — it can be a source of freedom.
and it can be a source of power:
i am the creator.
and you my friend, are the creator.
something a bit more raw for you today…
i’ll leave you with this:
What would shift if you gave yourself permission to release what you’re holding onto right now?
blessing your full moon with reflection, and wholeness,
PS. i hope this goes without saying, but my reflection shared today is in no way meant to imply that there is no external cause of suffering. despite what some spiritual traditions might claim, i think that view lacks nuance, and can be far too easily misinterpreted as a lack of compassion.
